[Her silence up until this point has been slowly killing him. The only way to deal with it is by not dealing with it, something he...used to be better at. The new baby Aron and his new little Darumaka friend have both been welcome - and vital - distractions, but her absence and her silence have been affecting him nevertheless.
Her replies, when they finally come, are so short and so clipped he almost doesn't respond. She must be angry with him still, for not listening to her, for pushing her, for forcing her to deal with the aftermath of his stubbornness. The guilt he's been distracting himself from crashes in, nestling in the pit of his stomach. He feels like vomiting. But he thinks if he starts then he might never stop.]
SHe doesn't have to. WIll you hang on to it for mE? IT can wait until I see you again.
[Then he can apologize in person, to her face, and maybe, somehow, he'll think of a way to make things right between them again.
There has to be a way, doesn't there?
He can't let himself even consider the alternative.]
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Her replies, when they finally come, are so short and so clipped he almost doesn't respond. She must be angry with him still, for not listening to her, for pushing her, for forcing her to deal with the aftermath of his stubbornness. The guilt he's been distracting himself from crashes in, nestling in the pit of his stomach. He feels like vomiting. But he thinks if he starts then he might never stop.]
SHe doesn't have to. WIll you hang on to it for mE? IT can wait until I see you again.
[Then he can apologize in person, to her face, and maybe, somehow, he'll think of a way to make things right between them again.
There has to be a way, doesn't there?
He can't let himself even consider the alternative.]