It's rough as hell. I feel shitty anyway, about...everything. And then I see you...having the life you've got and not being a part of it and that just makes me feel even shittier, and the shittier I feel the more pissed off I get and I just get all worked up and angry and guilty and crummy and I...throw it all at you.
Which...is not the way to deal with my baggage. I put a lot on you, I know I do. More than I should.
But...ya gotta try and look at it from my side. It's not easy for someone to face it when they've driven away their only god damn family.
[Did he phrase that right? Did he make it sound like he was taking the blame? Because that's what he's going for.]
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It's rough as hell. I feel shitty anyway, about...everything. And then I see you...having the life you've got and not being a part of it and that just makes me feel even shittier, and the shittier I feel the more pissed off I get and I just get all worked up and angry and guilty and crummy and I...throw it all at you.
Which...is not the way to deal with my baggage. I put a lot on you, I know I do. More than I should.
But...ya gotta try and look at it from my side. It's not easy for someone to face it when they've driven away their only god damn family.
[Did he phrase that right? Did he make it sound like he was taking the blame? Because that's what he's going for.]